Happy Thursday:
Have you ever heard the old joke that goes like this? "Someone said to me, cheer up, things could be worse. So I cheered up and sure enough, things got worse." How about the old saying that reminds us that "when it rains, it pours?" Well, on Monday afternoon my back went out on me. It almost completely shut me down. It doesn't happen often, but this isn't the first time that my back has gone out, so I knew exactly what to do. I was sitting on my back doctor's front door step first thing Tuesday morning. He gave me an adjustment and it was instantly better. While I am on a roll with jokes, I am reminded of the old man who said, "I am so old, my back goes out more than I do."
Just as I knew where to turn for my back adjustment, I also know where to turn when I need a spiritual adjustment. When that happens I find myself sitting on the front door of my Lord's house in prayer. Just like my back doctor, He knows exactly what I need. (and I don't have a $40 co-pay)
When you have an issue, do you know where to go? As the song says, "Try Jesus."
It's all about Him!
MY BLOG
Thank you for checking in on my blog. The idea of this blog is to keep you up to date on my cancer journey. I will also post some personal thoughts from time to time. Whatever I post, know that it is written with love. Also, know that it might be written with some of my wit. So it might not be grammatically or politically correct.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Monday, May 27, 2013
A blessed Memorial Day to my blog family. Spend this day appreciating those who died so that we might have a free country to enjoy a holiday. But also spend some time today thanking God for sending His Son, Jesus to die so that we might have a free soul and one day spend eternity with Him.
I apologize for not blogging since last Monday. And I appreciate several of you mentioning this to me yesterday.
If I go for a few days without blogging it usually means that either there is nothing new going on in my cancer journey, or that I feel too sick to blog. This past week though, I suppose that the reason that I have not posted is that indeed I have nothing new to report - but it is extremely frustrating to Diane and to me. I know that we should be grateful that nothing new in the cancer world is going, and believe me, we thank Jesus every day for my healing. But the frustrating part comes in when I go to the scales and have not gained any weight, and when I get physically worn out just riding the lawn mower for a couple of hours, and when I have that same pain in my stomach that I have had for a long time. But this I do know. We have not lost our faith, and He has not forgotten us for one second. He has His plan for my life and it will happen in His time.
I do have one exciting thing to report today. As of last Saturday, May 26th, I have survived cancer for one and one half years. (18 months). The significance of this number comes from the fact that the two milestones for a pancreatic cancer patient is 18 months, and 5 years. After 18 months the odds go from 4% to 25% survival rate. That might not sound like much to you, but it is a big deal to me.
Thank you for reading my blog. Sometimes it helps just to write stuff down and know that someone is reading. You might want to try starting a journal. Just writing your thoughts down can be healing.
And remember; it's all about Him!
I apologize for not blogging since last Monday. And I appreciate several of you mentioning this to me yesterday.
If I go for a few days without blogging it usually means that either there is nothing new going on in my cancer journey, or that I feel too sick to blog. This past week though, I suppose that the reason that I have not posted is that indeed I have nothing new to report - but it is extremely frustrating to Diane and to me. I know that we should be grateful that nothing new in the cancer world is going, and believe me, we thank Jesus every day for my healing. But the frustrating part comes in when I go to the scales and have not gained any weight, and when I get physically worn out just riding the lawn mower for a couple of hours, and when I have that same pain in my stomach that I have had for a long time. But this I do know. We have not lost our faith, and He has not forgotten us for one second. He has His plan for my life and it will happen in His time.
I do have one exciting thing to report today. As of last Saturday, May 26th, I have survived cancer for one and one half years. (18 months). The significance of this number comes from the fact that the two milestones for a pancreatic cancer patient is 18 months, and 5 years. After 18 months the odds go from 4% to 25% survival rate. That might not sound like much to you, but it is a big deal to me.
Thank you for reading my blog. Sometimes it helps just to write stuff down and know that someone is reading. You might want to try starting a journal. Just writing your thoughts down can be healing.
And remember; it's all about Him!
Monday, May 20, 2013
Monday, May 20
Happy Monday blog friends,
After making those pain med adjustments that I talked about in my last blog, I am feeling much better. Since the pain came back when we lowered the dosage, we are disappointed that the nerve block did not work. But at least we know of one more thing that is not the problem. I have an appointment scheduled for a couple of weeks from now with a nutritionist. My first thought was, "that's just what I need, another doctor." But, then again, this might be a key to my answers about pain and digestive issues. Who knows? Oh yes, that's right. God knows!
It would impossible to keep my head on and not be completely frustrated if I did not have confidence that; one, God is in Control, and two, everything that happens to me has something in it that I can learn from.
Make it a point this week to learn something that God is trying to teach you.
After all, It's all about Him!
After making those pain med adjustments that I talked about in my last blog, I am feeling much better. Since the pain came back when we lowered the dosage, we are disappointed that the nerve block did not work. But at least we know of one more thing that is not the problem. I have an appointment scheduled for a couple of weeks from now with a nutritionist. My first thought was, "that's just what I need, another doctor." But, then again, this might be a key to my answers about pain and digestive issues. Who knows? Oh yes, that's right. God knows!
It would impossible to keep my head on and not be completely frustrated if I did not have confidence that; one, God is in Control, and two, everything that happens to me has something in it that I can learn from.
Make it a point this week to learn something that God is trying to teach you.
After all, It's all about Him!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Wednesday, May 15
I believe that the Lord speaks to us through other people. Sometimes those other people know that they are delivering God's message and sometimes they don't have a clue. My friend and church member Tommy Beamon is a man of God. He is struggling with some breathing issues and possibly some heart issues. The fact is, the medical experts don't exactly know at this point. Whatever it is, Mr. Tommy said yesterday, it is "one of God's mysteries." I don't know if I have ever heard it put quite that way before, but I like it.
As you know, over the past days we have been trying to cut back on some of my pain meds and make some adjustments on some others. I have been doing extremely well until yesterday. Somehow the train kind of ran off of the track and I began to have some intense pain. (now remember, I am a wus, so intense pain for me might not be intense to someone else.) Anyway, I really hurt yesterday and am continuing feeling that pain today. Why? Maybe it's just one of God's mysteries.
Tommy and I agreed that if we had a God small enough for us to understand, then we would not have a very big God. Our God is much greater than that. How big is your God? Just wondering.
As you know, over the past days we have been trying to cut back on some of my pain meds and make some adjustments on some others. I have been doing extremely well until yesterday. Somehow the train kind of ran off of the track and I began to have some intense pain. (now remember, I am a wus, so intense pain for me might not be intense to someone else.) Anyway, I really hurt yesterday and am continuing feeling that pain today. Why? Maybe it's just one of God's mysteries.
Tommy and I agreed that if we had a God small enough for us to understand, then we would not have a very big God. Our God is much greater than that. How big is your God? Just wondering.
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Saturday, May 11
As I walked my "15 minutes of fame" last night as the adult honorary chair at the Wayne County Relay for Life, I realized - again - just how blessed I am. Rev. Cole opened the event with a prayer and the Scripture that reminds us that there is "a great cloud of witnesses." It reminded me of the great cloud of witnesses that have helped get me through the cancer journey so far. My wife and the rest of my family, my church family, my many friends and community neighbors, the many folks who prayed for me from all over the world, and many more.
Tomorrow is Mother's Day. On the one hand, I wish my mama were here. Folks who knew her come up to me and tell me how proud she would be of me. To a "mama's boy" like me, that is an ultimate compliment. On the other hand, my mama was a big baby and a worrier. I am glad that she is in Heaven with Jesus instead of down here worrying about me.
I will see her soon enough. Until then, I've still got a lot of living to do. God still has a purpose for my life. Pray with me that I will listen to Him and do it.
Have ever prayed and then actually sat there and taken time to listen to Him? Try it. I dare you.
Tomorrow is Mother's Day. On the one hand, I wish my mama were here. Folks who knew her come up to me and tell me how proud she would be of me. To a "mama's boy" like me, that is an ultimate compliment. On the other hand, my mama was a big baby and a worrier. I am glad that she is in Heaven with Jesus instead of down here worrying about me.
I will see her soon enough. Until then, I've still got a lot of living to do. God still has a purpose for my life. Pray with me that I will listen to Him and do it.
Have ever prayed and then actually sat there and taken time to listen to Him? Try it. I dare you.
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